I think I'll go to Boston...

I made it through my first month in Boston. I had a bit of a break though this weekend too...and I don't miss my friends back at home as much. They are all just stuck in the cycle of the same old thing and I remembered why I wanted to leave in the first place. It was a rough week though. I felt really annoyed and frustrated at many things...I know that it will take me awhile to adjust to some New England ways of life things....but instead of embracing them like I did at first...I found that I was a little annoyed by them.

I am loving my roommates. I am so glad that I found some girls that I can live with. That was a big stress before I moved here and I have no clue how I had such good fortune but I am glad that I did.

Work has been busy. I am kind of hoping for a day off this next week since I have put in so much overtime. I like to work...it gives me a sense of purpose in this big city. Plus my job involves giving back at all times to the community which is an amazing feeling to come home with at the end of the day.

Overall I am doing really well. I just need to remember why I came here and not let any of this other bs get in the way of that...

Distance means so little...when someone means so much...

So my sister and her boyfriend are engaged...WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!

So I woke up to a nice little flood in my apartment..my toilet leaked which is quite lovely to clean up toilet water when you wake up in the morning! Please can i be 5 and live with my parents and not be an adult anymore??? This apartment is pissing me off! I pay an arm and a leg for it and all this shit is wrong with it. It turns out a have an old toilet...go figure and one of the seals was worn down which is fine but not when it floods my bathroom....it is just a real fun time...

I am going home this weekend and I could not be more excited! Last time I went home though it was not so good...so I hope that things start getting better. I am trying so hard to stay busy...do well in school and make some friends but things keep going wrong and I don't know how to deal somedays. I cry alot which is not like me...I feel like the stress of everything is catching up...from the whole issues with my health that are STILL not good and trying to make it up here on my own. I just hope that things start going a little better. I am tired of feeling like this. I am really trying....alot of people don't stay in Laramie very long and I knew that it was going to be a struggle but I just wish things could get a little easier...

And I'll say you never hurt me
and look at it as learning
laugh about the good and the bad
I won't forget you
I'm not going to let you win
but I'm tired of lying
tired of fighting you
and it's not going to change....

So I am getting used to being here in Laramie...It is still going to take some time though. School is good but I think that I may have taken too many classes which might be intersting. But I hope that I can handle it. I have been doing alot of reading which is so unlike me...but I paid a million dollars for these books so I will read the fucking index at this point for all the money I paid. I am slowly making friends...it is weird...I feel like I am starting all over again...meeting old friends again too. I saw Stephen the other day at work and I haven't talk to him since I have been back really so I was excited to see him..he wants to go out drinking which sounds like a plan to me...I need a break from reality for a night. The job is going good I guess...I don't work too often...this is the frist weekend that I am not going to go home...I am trying not to go home every five mins but I miss my family which shocks me...but I miss having their support..well my mom's....and I miss the girls and my old job...really my old life but I am giving this new one a chance...it is only going to be as good as I make it I suppose. And I am really amazed at my outgoing-ness these past weeks...it is so unlike me...let's just hope that it pays off in the end..

Rach...I miss you...call me when you can...I worry about you.:) In a good way not in a judgemental way...I need to come to DC...or you need to come here...

Well I think that I am going to go take a nap before I have to go to work...love SUGA

So living on my own is not all that it cracked up to be...my phone never works....today I had no hot water...I got my computer set up and have maybe the slowest internet connection in the world...cried and then remembered that I am lucky to have my own place...but after a freezing cold shower it is hard to feel good about much

I got a job at Blockbuster I start tomorrow...is it bad that I am scared and miss Victoria's Secret? I want to go home now thanks...no more adulthood for me...

Is it bad that I want someone to just take care of me? I hate having to do all the hard stuff on my own. I am really amazed at all that I am capable of doing when I try. But I really get overwhelmed thinking of all the stuff that is up ahead and it is only going to get harder..

Please tell me that this is all worth it and in the end I am going to get an amazing job out of all this...

I just want this all to be worth it.

So I really love it that their was terrorist activity in the UK while our friends from the UK are here...

I really hope that they can get home okay...

They have been driving me crazy and yet they are so funny about things...they are worried about getting all the Bath and Body Works lotion home that they just bought.

Seems silly to worry about such things when 10 planes could have blown up...

What the hell is happening....things get scarier by the second.....

So I survived my first three nights in my apartment...they were rather uneventful except for the first night when i discovered that the hot water in the shower did not work and that my phone wasn't getting service...so after I called the apartment office and sprint to re-program my phone all was well...last night some girls from VS came up for movies, alcohol and cigs...it was a good night

I applied to work at Blockbuster...which is lame but Laramie is a lame town and free movie rentals are my friend and will make up for the lack of salary that I will be making there.

The British are coming tomorrow and I have no idea what to expect since they have NEVER been to the US and their first experience will be Cheyenne, Wyoming...I hope that they have a good time...

I am moving to my apartment today and won't have internet for a while...

its a good time for me to think anyways...

about events of this past week..

if you need me you know where to find me...

Bye for now